Moondome

Once I got my first ever expensive SLR camera, I was so happy to have it! I had a year of endless shooting everything and everything looks beautiful with that blur and standard filter. Pure joy! And guess what happened? My husband told me that every camera has it't own limit on shutter count, and my camera has about 150 000 - 200 000 shots. Not sure about the number, but it doesn't so far - that was the end of my world. Since that day I was trying not to do more than 1-2 shots on a scene or object, which is helping little to improve your "eye" because as they say - the first 100 000 of your photos is the worst ones. It was ridiculous to do that - save the shutters moves to the future just to have my first ever camera for longer period of a time.
After all, in two years, I dropped a bag with camera on a floor and crushed the flash gun joint because it was still attached to it. Stupid, isn't it. All my worries was just wasting of time and thought and my camera died just because I was too hurried to come back home and didn't pack my camera properly.
So, here is again I am worrying about the future - I am starting a new blog at the Blogger.com and my website still in process, and I am studding marketing by myself, and I bought some silver to teach myself to work with it, but I am afraid to ruin it all for nothing... And it all so exited as well as freighting - I like to do my stuff, I like to craft my business as well as my jewelry. But there is no any guaranties if I am on the right way, maybe I am wasting my time and in five years I will be an average person working in MacDonalds or small clerk in a office (no offense for the work, point is it is not my type of work).
The thing I got thanks to that camera story - you should never worry about the future, never. Don't be afraid, live now, enjoy yourself now, not tomorrow, because what you have now you can newer have tomorrow. Because you can have much more - my new camera was much much better then the broken one, I would never afford it unless the previous was done. All I missed - hours of sadness and fear to lost what I have in future instead of been glad and happy with what I have now.
Be happy now, be inspired and do all you can today. that is my message for myself and all who will join me in beautiful future here, in my new re-made blog! Welcome!
(Russian version is under the cut)